Nobody

I’m nobody…
I’m just an ordinary girl….having an ordinary job….living in ordinary town….meet ordinary people…
My family is an ordinary family, just like any family anywhere…
But maybe my family is less than ordinary…for Indonesian or eastern standard….
Maybe that part of my life is the only thing less than ordinary…
I have to be strong…I have to be calm…I have to be a good child….so my parent wont get hurt…coz they have those things already from my brothers and sisters..
Sometime I wanna scream…I wanna go wild…I wanna live my life as I want to….
But I can’t do it…coz I have to be calm…I have to be strong…a have to be everything but weak…
My parent, my relative…force me to do it with or without saying anything….
It happened since my fifth grade…..
I’m lost between everything that happens to me and my family….
Ya Robbi….help me…I know YOU can hear me crying for help….
I keep telling my self ‘I can’t give up just yet’…
And please GOD helps me….